A Rather Confused Chap in a Suprisingly Simple World

I spend a lot of my time thinking, it can be about anything, my future, the world's future, what other ways at the end of Endgame could have prevented Iron Man's death, Yaddah Yaddah Yaddah.  From time to time I like to play philosopher, mostly about myself, I am self absorbed that way. This time might have been a result of watching 3 seasons of The Good Place in 3 days, maybe not, who is to tell? To be honest, I'd make a great philosopher, maybe I'll take a philosophy class in college, who is going to stop me? Well maybe my parents, but again they'd only be able to try. Getting off topic, motivation. That is what made me want to write something other than a story after so long. Most of the things I have done in my life I have had only 1 of 2 motivations, either I have wanted to do it or I have had no other choice, because of either someone else or because I cornered myself into that position. In the past 2 years I have been trying to find a motivation for something...

  Ashish was on his toilet, his pants down as he tried to beat his lowest time in minesweeper. Ashish was a simple man when it came to mobile games, he didn’t like playing power needy games like PUBG or even Asphalt, the most “extravagant” game on his phone was Uno Friends.  Ashish was trying to figure out what box to click next, it was down to two of them, he took a chance as time was running out and sadly clicked wrong. As soon as the last mine went off, he shouted ,”Motherf*cker, bloody assh*le” He was a simple man when it came to mobile games, not cusswords.. He switched off his phone and pulled up his pants. He wasn’t actually using the toilet, he just liked playing games in the bathroom, it was the quietest there. He came out to see his brother listening to music on his bed, as soon as his brother saw him, he removed his headphones. “That is the 5th time you have gone to the bathroom within the past 3 hours.” “I took 4 servings of eggs during breakfast today.” “You skipp...

                                                                  “Imperceptible”                                                       I was sitting in my car. My whole family was still inside the temple, paying their respects to the gods inside. Music was playing on the radio, nice Bollywood music from the 60’s, soothing to the ears, perfectly accompanying the atmosphere the heater had made. My head laid against the window as I looked out and saw the mist from my breath fade off the window. I saw a homeless man behind the mist. He h...

I have been asked a lot  of times in my life; What is my biggest fear? I don't really knew what it was, I am not afraid things people are normally afraid of. I am not afraid of heights, some insect, the dark or ghosts. I always thought I was the most afraid of being left alone in the world, being lonely, but I have recently realised, everyone is afraid of this. No one wants to be left alone, not even Aromantic people. So I re-evaluated my definition of fear, fear is a reaction you have to something you never want to encounter because you have not yet learnt to fight it or as many people might say, overcome it. So what is the one thing I never want to encounter, the one thing that leaves me numb, angry, distorted, vulnerable, something I seem to always be powerless against, and the answer is- Conflict. My biggest fear in life is Conflict. Now some might say, "Oh, you just don't know how to fight.", well then why do I feel everything that fear is when someone I know fig...

It is no use mentioning the time of the day, as these days Sameer was numb to the experience of the passage of time and couldn’t have told you the time. All he could have told u was that the sun was out and there was a breeze. The urn in his hands felt as if it was a part of his body now. He didn’t know this, but his son told him that he had spent the entire previous day clutching the urn in his hands. Sameer was astonished to hear this, not that he had spent the entire day doing this, but the fact that it happened yesterday. He knew yesterday happened, he just couldn’t tell if he was there. He heard a voice, he looked around to see whose it was, it was his son’s, standing right beside him.”When did he get here?”, he thought to himself or at least he should have. “Pa come on we need to go, it’s a long drive.” “Hmm” Sameer was in his senses more, the numbness had started to fade, he remembered what day it was. He wished he hadn’t. He got into his son’s car, a green chevy beat. ...

Heard of religion? No? Well who cares, it's not like in our country, one has a relatively higher chance of dying in religion related violence.......except UP. Religion!!! We all follow one or are forced  by our parents to follow one. The world is home to over 4300 recognized religions along with a number of tribal faiths and unrecognized ones. There are 6 major religions and our nation houses all of them. One of them is the Baha'i Faith which I personally think is the best among all the religions in the world, no Yogi Adityanath, its not hinduism and no ISIS its not Islam. Now how many of you actually know about Baha'i, its not like one of India's most famous monuments-The Lotus Temple is dedicated to this religion, so its ok if u don't(even i learned about it an year ago). Now, why did I say that this religion is my favourite, I mean I do live in a BJP loving household, so why take this risk? Turns out Baha'i stand for a hella good belief. Their mean belie...

"Something none of us are comfortable talking about in a social setting." I knew you read this and thought that the something was sex. It isn't, ok? Clear your dirty thoughts. Not everything is about sex even though anything can be, just ask the people who have balloon fetishes. A few years ago, while i was surfing on the internet and drinking a very nice, super chilled ice tea; I came across the term "Gender Spectrum". Yeah its gender, don't run away, open your minds and please continue reading. Please, don't be that guy. Now of course, like any good digital age teenager, I clicked on the link. I  learnt that day that many people believe that gender is not male and female, Its rather a giant spectrum on which you can lie anywhere. Now a lot of people say this theory is false and gender is only what is in your pants. I urge all  of u to now look into your pants and see what your gender is according to these people. This is one side of how gender is...